On Fallow Periods, In Life and Work
“Fallow” as a description of farmland means “left unsown”, typically to let the land recover, or to prepare to rotate crops.
Feeling “fallow” in life and work could mean a creative hiatus, or a pause, between things. Feeling fallow hurts- we think of all the things we could be doing. We stagnate in our jobs-I hit an awful stagnation point in recent years. Work through, grind through, keep going, looking to the future. It’s hard to push through when we feel dead creatively. We stagnate in our hobbies and lives. Fallow doesn’t have to mean “dead”, though.
What seeds lurk beneath the soil, waiting to burst forth?
What will arise from the rocks, dirt, rubble, and dried husks?
For me, as for many, COVID-19 killed all job momentum, killed my creative life. I used to write often. I used to think and make wild connections and conjectures, drawing links between things. I had ideas. I tried to get new jobs. I tried out new creative projects.
It felt and still feels like walking barefoot over a rocky beach. It felt and still feels like it’s hard work to think creatively, to try out new ideas, to make plans for projects.
There is probably nothing that could have shortened that process. As Van Morrison sang, “it just is”. It just was, it just…is.
